I LOVEE THAT SHOWWW! all my babies came over tonight to watch it with me. which is swell bc i hadnt seen them since nye, which ps. was the BEST ONE ive had ever. the bf met ALLLL my babies from home, and they all loved him to pieces. i got SHITFACED, and my baby took care of me which was also nice.

i started looking for internships today. which was probably the most proactive thing ive done all break. like i felt like i was finally on some sort of move. im still not sure what the fuck i want to do with my life, but atleast a kick ass resume will help along the way! ahha

but yeah, other than that, life is buen. i go back to school the 19th. and while i am NOT pumped for the whole learning process .. i nneeedd my jobbb (cause im broke), miss cuddling in bed with my babeee, and i misss all my girls (and rocking the all night bar crawl..yum!). but i love being busy and stressed .. idk it makes me feel like im doing something .. howeveer sleeping in bed all day and watch tyra with my mom is also a life i could get used to.


urgh, love when my bf calls me in his crannkkyy ass mood bc he cant sleep. he would be pissing me off if i was actually listening, haha. whatevvss.. i love this goof.

woo life! hehe. so my BOYFRIEND and i went out last night. oh yeah, hes my boyfrienddd noww! im so ridiculously happy. hes met the whole family now and like did all the good stuff, then friday when i got outta class he was standing there with a HUGEE bouquet of flowers and was like weve been through so much these past months, and i honestly cant imagine my life without you .. will you be my girlfriend.

and i know, that seems like crazy overkill. but weve been having some problems lately with like jealous bitches trying to come between us. and since we wernt "official" that means she can try to sleep with him. yeah! but noww hes alll mineeee (4/25/08♥)!

but yeah, life is good. even though my grades are a little shakey. but im praying my computers teacher takes pity on the fact that i MISSED a whole page on his test, like i LITERALLY flipped through it like seven times and did not see it .. there for giving me a 69 on his test. if i get a B in COMPUTERS im going to feel like a tool. pluss i allotted my "one B a semester" to calcII. HM, this puts me in a pickle. oh well.

lifes too short. i refuse to stress about anythinngg.

so. ive been doing alot of thinking lateley about my life, and where ive been in the past year. and i honestly, can say that im SO much different than i was a year ago. ive been through things that no person should have to go through (yes, i did do it. feb 28) but i can honestly say i dont regret it. i mean of course at times i do, and i think i will always regret that i FELT like i had to. but its just changed so much about my outlook on life and everything.

i love college so much! like honestly, the last day to move out is may 10th and im like finding every way to stay here longer. i love my friends here, i love my newfound freedom and my big girlness. i love working HARD and it paying off (grade, and jobs) i love coming, going, and doing what I WANTTT. like i want to get my own apartment SO BAD. ive become so much better at finances and budgeting.. and so much less interested in having the most expensice nonsense that means nothing. ive learned to love myself depsite the haters and they nay-sayers, and the BITCHES THAT LOVE TO BRING YOU DOWN. ive found a boy that i can for the first time say i love with all my heart and MEAN IT. i have no desire to do anything with anyone else, i just love to spend time with him. we can play video games till 3 in the mornign and just cuddle until we fall asleep, and that ENOUGH for the both of us. idont have to be anyone but myself and he gets that and he loves that. im loving my classes, adn the hard work. i still dont know what i want to do with my life, but i deff have a major and a mionor and i love those too!

wow, im so fucking happy latley i cant standddd ittt! hehe, but i need to finish up this paper so i can get dinner with the boyyyy lateerrr! hehe. yay

so there was this raging party tonight, but i couldnt go because whatever. and then i get online and my friend danny stars iming me .. and it like sooo drunk and confessing his like undying love for me and how in his perfect world i would be his wife, and he spent the whole time at the party looking around waiting for me to show up, and if he has known i wouldnt be there he would have stayed home bc there is no reason for him to go out unless ill be there .. and its prettyyy awkwarrdd to the maxxxx.


haha. okay, byee!

worst day.

so a teacher at my school died. and he was LITERALLY the first man in that school to learn my name, like he was sooo nice. and like i went to the wake with steph and jnette and i literally was a WRECKK. like i dont do well with funerals and wakes to begin with, because i get crazy flashbacks to my uncles. and literally being in a room with soo many people, like students, parents, alumni .. i just couldnt handle it. like no one understood how lonley i was when i first moved back here like NO ONE SPOKE TO ME. but mr. dole like learned my name and cared and he just ... im like getting choked up just thinking about it .. it just wasnt fair.

so yeah, the rest of my day was good. but now i have a wicked headache from crying. and im supposed to go to kristens but i might just passs outt even though its 10:37. this would make the FIRST night all vaca ive been home before 2am. yay! i love being a good kid♥.



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heyy everyone! this is nicole, formally poster__girl. this is my new journal, and ill probably completly switch over in a week or two. for now im just re-joining communitys, getting icons and a prettyfull layout. so yah, well see how this new name goes. oh and ps. it will be friends only, (once i find a banner cute enough!)


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